Everything is a sweetest nightmare,
I miss everything about you, can't believe that i still want you. I know i was bad to said those harsh words to you. But someday you still have to come to this point of time, and i think you should know this very well. Yes, i never told you how i feel at all. The moment i hang your call, do you ever know how painful is my heart to say those things to you, & you don't even know my tears just roll down like that. Maybe this is how fate are, but i'm just hiding behind the wall, and lie to myself, everything gonna be alright, when it is not. Perhaps, i don't even know what are you think either. I really wish i can dig your mind out.
If i say, i love you that is unreasonable. If i say i like you, that seem so-not-right. So, i rather say you're my best friend, and yet you always left me out behind telling me, you gonna be here soon. Your soon took forever. So, i hate it whenever i was waiting for your call/reply. Therefore, i missed your call, i always blame myself. What for? -.-
Yes, your concern really make my days. Your words always melt my heart. But, sometime you don't even know that you're a part of my heart that standing a important position. I really wish i can tell you all this while, but i choose not to cross the line, before the ending might be worst. I choose rather suffer alone, and not gonna affect you at all, you understand?
I remembered every little things of you, just like how a nice boyf you are. Maybe you isn't prefect at all. But at least, everything that represent you it shows that you're really a wonderful boyf i ever seen. Sometime, just because something you said, it really running my mind the whole day. Then, i'll stare into the air and smile to myself.
Thanks for being stupid enough to talk to me over the hours just to make me laugh. Thanks for being a silly to act like a kid to entertain me. Thank for letting me know that you won't be here anymore before i feel even more dying inside.
If there is still someday we met in future, i wish i can see a better you again. Seriously, i still miss you like how i used to. But everything gonna change from now on. I wish i don't even know you at the very beinging of time. Or i should say that fate that bought us here, that's already enough for us? Yes, i won't be your forever. You suit someone better outside.
If one day you feel like crying, call me. I don't promise that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you. If one day you want to run away, don’t be afraid to call me. I don’t promise to ask you to stop, but I can run with you. If one day you don't want to listen to anyone, call me. I promise to be there for you, and I promise to be very quiet. But if one day you call, and there is no answer, come fast to see me.
Perhaps, I need you.
FYF! Sometime even i smiling, i feel like crying.
