Love story,

2011-05-18T22:40:00.005+08:00

How i wish,

I will dry my tears & Walke away. Move on with life, show you i'm a better person after climbing over the boundaries.

Nowadays YP's brain got problem. I know although we're just a few years gap. But you knn show your temper like free-flow, wo kiam ni ah? You only know my name, not my stories. Stop saying things and act like you are a gangta. Sorry, I old already, cannot take it.

School la, work la, family la.. everything got problem one. I almost breathless already. Tmd, who the fuck will understand how i felt? I will glad to give out my position to you, just for you to try out how 'wonderful' it is.

Just in case, one day i can't take it anymore. I will do my part, and let things be done & walk away.

2011-02-20T21:43:00.003+08:00

I've tried my very best.

Every scars that left, it hurts whenever the past cross my mind.

2010-12-31T01:29:00.004+08:00

Just bang me down,

I feeling so in the mess now. But i just don't know where to start from. Argh! I'm glad that Mum is back home now. As time goes by, i believe thingz will be better.

Omgshz, i receive smth today. So surprise! Hahaha. Thankz ah.

I opened up many last time folders, i realised .. i miss them. Especially you. Ha-ha, maybe you had really make a mark inside my heart that i really really cannot forget whatever that happened between us. Whenever i looked at the fotoz, smth cross my mind .. Sigh.

Okayz, today is the last day of 2010 already. I don't know what to do. Ha-ha, i only know that i gonna be one year older -.- ! Life is short, but there are plenty of time for you to do whatever you one, correct? So i doubt there's a need to do anythingz important before 2010 ends.

Byebye 2010, hello 2011. I will warmly welcome you. HAHA. <:

If thingz turns out this way, can i don't let go?

2010-12-20T22:26:00.004+08:00

I won't forget,

When you choose to leave here, Little brother & i was crying like fcuk at the main door. & you just walked away like that.

When you said you don't want the both of us, do you know whenever i laying on bed, i heard didi crying the blacket.

When you said that, you don't care us anymore. Do you know we did cried alone sometime & still smiling while talking to daddy?

Why did you being so heartless? Don't you know that didi is gonna start school soon? Don't you know that didi got nobody to take care? Don't you ever know that daddy wanna give away didi now? FCUK YOU SERIOUSLY. WHY DID YOU WANNNA MESS THIS? DOES THIS STILL CALL IT A HOME.

You can still continue your ww3 with your husband. PLEASE! Don't ever drag us in. You can choose throw me at the road side, i still can survive. But didi still young leiz. You choose to take meimei away, who you adore much. So does it means, it your eyes we are not your childrens at all?

I was thinking why did you so heartless that night while seeing me & didi crying so badly at the main door. You still can push us away & walked away like that.

Didi is with me now, where i can go? >:
I can't be selfish leaveing didi alone. >:
WHAT THE FCUK I DO TO DESERVE THIS?! !#$%^&*

2010-12-07T22:47:00.003+08:00

Because you said so,

Went to town today with cousin's family. Due to they don't know how to go the place, so i become the 'dao you' for the day :B Teehee. So, went and shopping around.

Then, i bought a shirt, a short & a slipper! Teehee. Took some fotos with cousin, and totally enjoyed. Althought didn't called up anyone, but take it as i'm a visitor la. Teehee.

Tmrw 8th dec. Fcuk the #$%^&*! if not i suppose to the taking my driving test tmrw >: So postpone until 16th. Then i still wake up early, then 17th still need go result. Tmd, double attack. I still wondering how am i going to get my result. Tsk.

Many thingz coming up, all need money de. Tmd, then need quickly go get a job already. What should be my 2011 plan leiz? Haiz.

If someday you're mentally tired already, don't force yourself to move forward. Stop & have a rest. No one will blame you. Because i'm a human too.

Forget it, Goodnight.

2010-12-01T15:59:00.002+08:00

Heels over head,

IT-fair was super tiring, i swear. Continuous standing 11hours straight, make my legs so painful ): Of course, i did eat snake for some of the times. :B hahaha.

Back to sweet home, like finally. The feeling is damn shiok. Bought a new phone, but it seem like red colour is much nicerrrr. White one better still. End up i bought a black one. Tsk. A little regret, but is okay :/

Hoho, kukup trip is coming. & this year is gonnaaaaaa end soon! :B hahahaha.

I started realize everything seem so fake, i don't know how to handle this kind of feeling.

2010-11-14T19:22:00.002+08:00

Life after you,

I started to stepping on where i am now & don't feel like move a single step. Great, how can i become like that? -.-

Anyway, few more days ahead. Money money money! ):

I need a job so badly. Tmd, everything is bothering me now. I can only get a job probably after this year. Tsk.

Gurantion night falls on 18th this month, i don't know what to wear. I know my cammy will with me. Hahaha. I know i will get to see many handsome & pretty on that night. Lol.

I feel like breaking down, a hug please? :/

2010-11-13T01:29:00.002+08:00

Dance in the dark,

Dear diary, here comes the november already. I was wondering why can't time flies a-little-bit faster & i will get to see all my BBF & schoolmate in Singapore.

I know i'm stupid for every step i'm taking now. But i couldn't turn back anymore. I'm started to be afraid now and i don't know what to do either. No matter what, i gonna enjoy myself for all i want for this year. 2011 will be a better one :D

When i flip through all the old fotos, i miss those time when i'm in SWP. I miss those time when i slacked with my friends. I miss those time when i with my girls in the school toilet. All the craps we talked, all the songs we sang. It totally kept running in my mind & i'm almost tears. Argh! ):

Does it really means that, love gonna be like this? :/

2010-11-03T14:32:00.003+08:00

I'm hanging on,

'I firmly believe in the world of love, romance is in the diversity of flora and fauna. Our dwelling devotion, purity and innocents is represented by a stalk of white rose. Nature gave us all, both me and you to contribute a significant role in the journey of love. Me, The brawny male, grow as a stalk, full of spike to deter threats. You, my dearest lovely fairy, is no other than the vibrant white petals, giving off sweet scent of smell to embrace every moment of our journey. I love you.'

Credit : Kenny lausaiface lovetolausaieveryday :B

It's meaningful & sweet sentences that he wrote. He told me that he wrote this to the girl he like and kena reject. Aww, Bro! You know you will found someone better in-front alright! :B Cheerup!

Anyway, second-november-two-oh-ten is loved (L)

2010-11-02T00:41:00.002+08:00

Dj got us falling in love again,

I love the weather nowadays here. Every night, it will never fail to make me hide inside my blanket.

There's something called, fate. And it happened make me shocked :B

Anws, I'm gonna kill myself soon ): why my aunt and all likes to keep remind me of that bastard! WITHOUT FAIL YOU KNOW! EVERYDAY LEI!

Daddy today bought back my lappy. Aww, my lappy finally back to home sweet home! Andand, he also bought me a jacket. I like it very much. Haha. Thanks daddy!

I miss my classmate, i miss my schoolmate, i miss my lovely clique, i miss you, you & you! Haha.

2010-09-23T15:03:00.003+08:00

I looked back, i smile to myself.

Things happened and it always got the way out when it come to the right time. I looked back the things i went through, it isn't easy. It's a lesson, a experiece for everyone of us, right? I know god wont give anyone of us a smootly path in life. I know that no matter how weak our heart is, we gonna show that we're strong. But, somehow i'm tired of pretending, just for that sometime.

I'm breaking down soon, any shooulder to lend? :/

2010-09-13T00:03:00.003+08:00

The reason i still breathing,

Hello peers, seem like i had neglect my blogger for a long period already. Anyway, now life is difficult somehow. Stress don't seem to go away. But is okay..

This foto took yesterday. Sentosa outing with my cliques, afterwards slacked at Vivo city. I swear, the weather is super good yesterday & wonderful peers like them. Totally make me enjoyable (: Talked with friends, & went home after that.

I believe everyone out there have a person that in your heart that never be replaced, not your lover, but is your family. These few nights, i finally realise how important are them to me. I know last time, i might be stubborn over their advices. Thinking back now, i know how silly i am choose to run away from them. They used to nag, scold & talked many negative things about me. But they choose to say the wrose of you for you to learn, isn't? & they won't hide any words from you to protect you. They spend almost half a life to take care of you, if they never care about you, why they should spend so much effort on you? Yes, i've learn from my mistake now. I miss you all, my family ):

My dear ChongKitMun & AwKeeLi. I know you both always care & hold me up when i was down. Babies, i choose to pretend from any sadness, telling you all that i'm fine. Because sometime i just feel that i don't deserve your love at all. So, i choose to push you away, but i know it was wrong. Hold me tight & let me cry in your arm, will you?

Everytime i look into your eyes, you know what i'm thinking? :/

2010-08-30T01:11:00.002+08:00

Back to being of time,

I know it's too late or maybe it is not the right time for me to say this. But, i really miss you a lot. I know it's so impossible that you will back to my side again. I swear, i tears over every little things of 'us'. How i wish you could be here right now, & let me hug you tightly.

Baby, i thought everything is over, it had been so long! But i dont know why everytime i turn & stare at you, the feeling still the same & my heart skipped a beat. I want to know, why am i still so concern about you, why am i still jealous. Yes, you might have your sweetest girl ever by your side. No, i couldn't have you anymore, i know.

I will never failed to remain myself to miss you every little day, especially at the timing of 0716. The first things always come to my mind is, you. Maybe it's just a memorize for me to do my flash back. Because, i know you won't be here anymore.

How i wish you won't be forget, there's someone like me love you so much down here. No, i'm not waiting or craving for your return. Because my wish won't come true, i know! But i just i want to let you know, if i'm not wrong.. you'll be passed by my blog sometime? Okay. If only, you passed-by. :C

I miss you, i swear, really a-lot. Are you tired by running in my mind everyday? :/

听回忆呼吸长达一世纪脑海中都是你冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影让孤单教我演戏幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候我们才相遇也许我没搭上爱情的时光器可是我永远不会忘记
爱你第一个原因就是你的安静你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语从今天到以后我心中有你

听回忆呼吸长达一世纪脑海中都是你冷瘦瘦城市里
像无声的电影让孤单教我演戏幻想我可以把时间倒回去
那时候我们才相遇也许我没搭上爱情的时光器可是我永远不会忘记
爱你第一个原因就是你的安静你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语从今天到以后我心中有你~ Woohoo

爱你第一个原因就是你的安静你就是那么特别那么唯一
虽然你像一朵云飞出了我的记忆我爱你别忘记
我思念着段过去没有人可以代替
记得我爱你每一个原因
别管我了不了解永远这一个谜语
从今天到以后我心中有你

2010-08-26T23:33:00.002+08:00

Thinking over and over again,

当手机简讯声响起
迟疑着惊喜或伤心
文字本身并没有对或错
连结另一颗心在诉说

然而你总不愿删去
想保存当初的回忆
无法备份感情只剩痛

你的心想出走
下不了的决定(下不了的决定)
无辜的永远都是真心(都是真心)
靠近之后就又逃离

如果能换一个代号(换一个代号)
是否可感觉到差异
如果能换成另一种外表
是男是女是恨或爱情

我知道这并不容易
缺少的也只是勇气
懂得放下以后才自由(才自由)

你的心想出走
下不了的决定(下不了的决定)
无辜的永远都是真心(都是真心)
想用我的方式爱你
简讯泄漏了表情

你的心想出走
下不了的决定
无辜的永远都是真心
想用我的方式 oh
你的心想出走
面对才能解脱(面对才能解脱)
无辜的永远都是真心
想用我的方式爱你
就用我的方式爱你

2010-08-14T01:17:00.003+08:00

Cold-shoulder,

School was fine, but exam(s) really drive me insane at times! ): Especially today papers. How can i black-out & feel like giving up everything at this point of time? Argh. N's is coming very soon, i'm still like - hanging half dead -.-

Okay, i got nothing to say already. Ha-ha, off to bed now :D

2010-08-10T01:14:00.006+08:00

I'm trying to be the one,

Time flies, prelim will be happen in few days time. Alright, i better get well prepare by now. Didn't get much sleeping time this few days, by i'm glad that i don't feel that tired actually (:

Seriously, if i'm brave enough i would said what i should say to you. I love the way whenever you're right beside me. When the minute i get to see you, it really brighten my day. But, both of us should be mature enough to know, it's already impossible. No matter what, we won't cross the line. Yes, i'm afraid to love, afraid to lose you in future. Before i'm falling deeper, i kept everything in the dark. I might leaving the regret. But, is okay.

我应该就走开就算感情还在我应该就放开对他不再依赖

2010-07-27T15:27:00.002+08:00

I lost the key that to open through this door,

Seem like i didnt't post for my bloggy for quite a period. Haha! Anyway, school nowadays is really fun! But the worse part is, i can't fall asleep even i'm tired ): Okay, this few days of school i just get irritated by something. But i got this group of monkeys who's really nice to accomapany me at all time. They're so sweet! :D

I going to meet my bitch tomorrow!! Hopefully wont have any troublesome thingy pop-up.

I don't understand why whenever i look at you, the feeling wont fade away. Then, emotional started to getting more complicated. The feeling you gave really like a roller coaster that going to drive me crazy, build me up & tear me down. This few days, i kept rewind all the past. Like, those memorise wont leave me alone. ): Tell me why the feeling is so strong that i cannot get over. I know i'm such a silly to say this. But u gonna know that i'm not going to say truth until you found out yourself. Even i leave tomorrow, i wonder.. do you still care? Just a little will do. I really wish you could feel the way i felt too. But it's so imposible la. ): Okay, it seem like i already knew how things gonna happened, yet my stubborness will never change. Argh! Forget it (:

I love this :D!!!

2010-07-20T23:07:00.002+08:00

It will never gonna be easy to keep constant,

I went to school today, but not yesterday or neither tomorrow. Anyway, I've great fun in school today. Then have study session with Eileen, Ts & Dionis. Okay, they are busying with their maths while i very concentrate on my story books :D

Afterwards went over to Bugis starbuck chit-chat with my close ones. Then have dinner together. Followed by shopping around Bugis. But i cannot find what i wanted to buy ): Okay, and headed home by bus.

I'm home sweet home now. Kinda busy this few days, many things is coming up. Time flies, & all my monkeys is planning so many events after n's level. Haha! Hopefully, i can attend all of it. Now, the most difficult part is, i need to work really hard on my study as well as my job.

When a human found themselves are heart broken. Obviously, it won't takes one night to get over, but maybe months or years. So, you cannot blame a person when he/she is stubborn. Just probably they're just simply stuck in the wonderful past. But people comes & goes in life. Who will be the silly one to let the love one to cry alone in the dark. It shows that they're just don't put themselves in your shoes by understanding how you feel.

心痛比快乐更真实爱为何这样的讽刺

2010-07-15T23:34:00.007+08:00

Nothing matter to me anymore,

I feeling so high last night! Okay, i almost forget about today N's level English oral exam today :/ Afternoon rushed over to school, luckily i still able to enter to take. If not i really bang myself down. How can i forget so important things?! Silly me!

Okay, anyway.. Went home afterwards. Mum cooked my dinner tonight! Ever since i start working. It have been very long time that i never eat dinner at home (:

I having sore throat now! My head is spinning ): Hopefully, i can drag myself to school tomorrow. Sigh, wondering why am i cant sleep during this hours of time. Tsk.

After so many things happened, I'm really sick how realistic is this world. It seem like everyone is wearing a mask while talking to you. And you don't know when is the next min they will going to kill you. In any point of time, you have to prepared to be killed by no reason. Yes, I'm afraid. What a horrible world, what happened to the humans nowadays. I getting confuse, getting insane. I'm trying to avoid it. So, i don't have to pretend, don't have to put on a fake smile. Telling you, I'm fine.

2010-07-10T01:49:00.004+08:00

Impossible,

I had pretended everything is fine and like nothing went wrong. But who will be the one to even try to understand the underline story? Alright, maybe i just don't wish to speak up either. Sigh. All i do is keep all the things inside my heart, i wonder when will it explode o.o

Sometime you see people smile at you is a kind of manners. Please, every one of us is human being, we all have feeling! To someone that don't wish to smile at all, have to take up how much guts to pretended that everything is alright? Human, you just simply don't put yourself in other's people shoes. You only stand up tall out there, think over again. You're just making yourself look like a fool. Haha! Okay, to make things clear.. i'm not talking anybody in this earth! I just tired of being smiling, that's all :/

Okay, big things to do for upcoming weeks! Hahaaaa. can't wait for it! Alrigh, lately i've keep hiding in my circle, my world. It's getting more & more unlike myself ): What is going on?!

I wanna have a better tomorrow, although it gonna be a long day.
I wanna my handphone don't low batt again!
I wanna a i-touch to kill my boredom!
I wanna my penguin to be as crazy as before, so cheerup!
I wanna go wherever i want after n's level!
I wanna have tons of $$!
I wanna Sep kuai dian dao!
I wanna to cry out all the unhappiness, but i can't!
I wanna see everybody's brain, what they are thinking!
I wanna be happy!
&
Lastly! I wanna have a good good night, tonight! :D

Note to self : Stop thinking so much, please!

2010-07-09T00:24:00.003+08:00

Babystep,

Finally get a off day today. Didn't went to school two days already. The sad things i could say is, i really missed out a-lot. Therefore, i really gonna have to drag myself to school tomorrow. But i just don't understand why i can't get to sleep at night. Tsk.

Alright, went to eat Sakae sushi with Kiwi, YanPing & Francis. & i swear, we were damn full afterwards. HAHA! Then Annchen came over to find us, then went over to watch 'Despicable Me' Haha, the yello tiny cartoon really make us laugh out loud. Damn cute :D

Afterwards, went over to walked around there. Then went to Teadot yam cha. Francis Ca & Raven La are such a kind soul. Yeah, thanks for being here with me all this while (: Talked a lot & after that went over to the usual place then headed home. & I saw Shuwei! hehe. Then, i'm home now :D

I remembered every little things of you, but i don't feel you at all.

Time is so precious that i gonna do so much things in just a short time. I hope, everything going on smoothly & i can just kick off the obstacles easily. But i know this isn't easy, so i gonna really work hard. Sigh, tired die me.

Maybe i've come to a point that i'm already speechless about everything.

2010-07-08T00:47:00.004+08:00

You made me even hold of your breath but you ran away like this,

Basicially, exam is coming closer & closer. Then, i haven't start to flip my paper yet! -.- Alright, then this few days always the same things happened over & over again. Morning went to school, afternoon rushed to work.

Alright, anybody wanna rent your room to me? Because i gonna have no-more-home already. Haha! Anyway, i really gonna cherish every moment with you all. Basicially, most of you should know what happened :/ Hmmm, my time table is so pack ):

Sometime, i really feel like giving up all the things out of sudden. I just don't understand why. Maybe i'm just over tired. I mean, mentally tired for .. everything in my life. Nowadays, i feel fucked up easily. Sigh, I need a long break, badly.

2010-07-04T04:03:00.003+08:00

So near yet so far,

I never told you what i should have say.

2010-07-03T01:56:00.001+08:00

CUTE SONG! <:

2010-07-01T00:02:00.002+08:00

Your voice just like a soundtrack,

I spend a wonderful night on monday (: The beautiful moon & the beautiful background of us, really unforgettable. Haha, i guess this is the first & last we meeting each other outside like this. I don't dare to imagine much, because i know i'll get the greater disappointment.

School had started already. & yes, i'm enjoying it very much! Because i finally get to see everyone faces! haha. O's level chinese tomorrow! ): I didn't prepared at all. Tsk! How?! :/ I still got many homework havent done yet!

Im now stuck with don't know what i should do for my future now. My plan is spoilt ): TSK! I better do something for it, before it getting worst. Alright, i gonna off to my bed now, before it's too late! Stay tune (:

If only you know what i mean.

2010-06-22T05:34:00.002+08:00

I wish i could capture every moment with you,

Basicially, my work day is totally fine today. & excited about everything. I just dont understand why :D

So, went to sing k with all my working friends. Kiwi, Billy, May, Mr Mah, Francis, Yan B, his gf, Jeff & one unknown guy. What a happy hours with them :D & guess what, got this guy sing until damn nice, anyway, i dont wanna mention name. HAHA! Really like how the real singer sing! *super like* !!

Afterwards, while the rest all cabby home. Mr Mah, Francis & myself went to drinking session. Followed-by, mac's breakfast (: haha! Then cabby home. What a great day with them right. Luvit! haha.

Anyway, tmrw is my bicth & sweetsweet bday. & I gotta meet them up like less than 12hours from now :D haha! Alright, im so happy now ^^

World cup is driving me crazy, what a nice match 7-0 -.- ROAR! Alright, thanks to spain, is totally a accpetable match for that :D haha!

That's all i guess. Gotta get to sleep, if not i wont wake up on time tmrw :x Hehe, Stay tune! ♥

You seem you're so not over your girl, but it hurt me when you showed up your sad face. But is okay. I hope in future, you could have a better girl & wont hurt you like that. Because, i wanna to see you happy. So, cheerup alright! Me support you all the way :D

2010-06-19T03:27:00.001+08:00

2010-06-19T02:23:00.003+08:00

You will never know,

Here is the, 100Truth. This should be at facebook, but i got nothing to update my bloggy. So i post this one la? :D hahaha. Fyi, i'm currently everyday working from day to night. So nothing much also.

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. Last beverage: Water
2. Last phone call: Ac.
3. Last text message: Ac.
4. Last song you listened to : Run devil run.
5. Last time you cried: Yesterday.

HAVE YOU EVER:
7. Been cheated on: Yea.
8. Kissed someone & regretted it: No.
9. Lost someone special: Yes.
10. Been depressed: Ya.
11. Been drunk and threw up: No.

LIST THREE FAVORITE COLOURS:
12. Black.
13. White.
14. Pink.

THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2010)
15. Made a new friend: Yes.
16. Fallen out of love: Yes.
17. Laughed until you cried: Yes.
18. Met someone who changed you: Yes.
19. Found out who your true friends were: Yes.
20. Found out someone was talking about you: Oh? Dont think so?
21. Kissed anyone on your friend's list: o.o?
22. How many people on your friends list do you know in real life: Most of them.
23. How many kids do you want to have: Dont know.
24. Do you have any pets: No.
25. Do you want to change your name: No need.
26. What did you do for your last birthday: Celebrated with all my bros & sists :D
27. What time did you wake up today: 10.37am
28. What were you doing at midnight last night: watch world cup.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for: Dec holiday.
30. Last time you saw your Mother: She is beside me.
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: Dont know.
32. What are you listening to right now: zui qin ai de.
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: no?
34. What's getting on your nerves right now: o.o
35. Most visited webpage: Facebook.
36. What's your real name: Kong mei qi
37. Nicknames: Many -.-
38. Relationship Status: Single
39. Zodiac sign: shui ping.
40. Male or female?: female.
41. Elementary?: Macpherson Primary.
42. Middle School?: Manjusri Secondary.
43. High school/college?: -.-
44. Hair colour: brown.
46. Height: 165.
47. Do you have a crush on someone?: ._.
48: What do you like about yourself?: LOL.
49. Piercings: 7 ear piercings
50. Tattoos: No.
51. Righty or lefty: Right.

FIRSTS :
52. First surgery: no!
53. First piercing: on ear.
54. First best friend: Chew mei.
55. First sport you joined: Basketball.
56. First vacation: Thailand.
RIGHT NOW
59. Eating: No.
60. Drinking: No.
61. I'm about to: Get sick.
62. Listening to: lan she yu.
63. Waiting on: nobody

YOUR FUTURE :
64. Want kids?: ya.
65. Get Married?: ya.
66. Career?: Enjoyable.

WHICH IS BETTER
67. Lips or eyes: both
68. Hugs or kisses: BOTH.
69. Shorter or taller: taller.
70. Older or Younger: Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous: spontaneous.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms: BOTH.
73. Sensitive or loud: depends(:
74. Hook-up or relationship: relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant: Don't know. Haha!

HAVE YOU EVER :
76. Kissed a stranger: NO!
77. Drank hard liquor: yup.
78. Lost glasses/contacts: yes.
79. Sex on first date: -'-
80. Broken someone's heart:
82. Been arrested: =='
83. Turned someone down: ):
84. Cried when someone died: T.T
85. Fallen for a friend?: ya.

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself: sometimes
87. Miracles: never.
88. Love at first sight: not really
89. Heaven: think so.
90. Santa Claus: no -.-
91. Kiss on the first date: o.o
92. Angels: no.

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
94. Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time: yes, i got many gfs.
95. Did you sing today?: Yesssss.
96. Ever cheated on somebody?: yes.
97. If you could go back in time: I wont do things that i not willing to.
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be?: My bday.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love?: Very afraid -.-
100. Posting this as 100 truths?: you say ley?

2010-06-18T03:29:00.004+08:00

Out of control of love,

First, i had a wonderful dinner with all of my little cute jokers last night ( Keeli, Yiling, JieMin, Yunzhao, TianLong, Edmund, Susheng and followed by Manwai & Dingliang. ) Although we don't have lobster or whatever. But! Wo meng chi de hen kai xin :D After that have ice-kacang together. Played basketball the whole night, & all of us sweating like mad, haha! Then go yam-cha together and went home (:

Second, i everytime gonna wake up early to prepare this & that. After that rush out for work. It's kind of tired. But, i never complain it (:

Third, time flies! It's gonna end June soon. Still got few more months left, & i know my bitch is always complaining that i didn't meet her up. But too bad uh! I'm kind of busy :D HAHA. But promise you on next tuesday i'll be super free alright! Luvyou!

Followed by, everyone is crazy over world cup nowadays. Haha! Of cos, included myself! (Y)

Lastly, i feel hard to make a move, as emotionally on relationship right now. Sick of love, tired of hearing every love song which every line of lyrics might hurt you like a cut. But is ok, is alright. Everything gonna be alright. (:

Few more months to go! :D

2010-06-12T02:56:00.001+08:00

面對面坐著眼神不屑一顧
擠出的笑容看起來好突兀
我走錯一步墬入萬丈深谷

還是會想起你的荒唐糊塗
針剛刺在心上血流已如注
背叛了幸福拿愛當賭注

曾把感情放逐何時能結束
遇到你我想停止遊牧
讓愛歸真返璞
飄泊會落幕
承諾說得那麼銘心刻骨

你的眼淚讓我無助
你懂不懂我為愛忍辱
努力學習寬恕原諒那錯誤
不甘我們的愛死在半途

聽見你的心還在哭
遺忘不及痛蔓延速度
希望你能覺悟我真的領悟
傷口慢慢癒合再被愛包覆

2010-06-08T01:30:00.005+08:00

You make me breathless when you hold me,

My house noise level is increasing! Thanks to my 3little cousin :/ I'm like their mummy to take care of them. Ohwell, but i did went to work today. Haha! Shuwei & Zhikang waited me at my house downstair & i'm late ._. Just like as usual. Then after that headed to Ubi together.

Met Qinren, then went to work from there. Work was definitely fine today, so nothing much also. After i end work, saw Jolene & many others outside t1, kinda surprise.

Afterwards, talked & slacked awhile. Around eleven plus, went home together with K. So, i'm home sweet home now. Outside is raining, really best weather for me to enter lala-land now (: haha!

Ohya, i saw little cute today (: He sound kinda sick, he looks so tired & i want to concern him, but the words i wanna say just don't know how to speak up. I love whenever you ramdomly send me a text without expected. I know it might sound stupid, because you don't get to undertsand how i feel when i recieve your text arrive my inbox. Im kinda miss you now, really.
也许爱你总是我最深的叹息和无奈...

2010-06-07T00:40:00.003+08:00

Happy zoo day :D !

My parents left me alone at home again! !@#$%^& Acutally wanted to go over Msia, but thinking of the journal, so .. just forget it. Was suppose meet my krazys sista at early morning, & i'm late! Really sorry about it ): Anyway, went for breakfast, then headed to zoooooo! HAHA. Really happy once we reached there. Took many many photos.

& my facebook being such a idiot that only upload half of my folder only. Sigh, then didn't manager to upload all. Tsk, nevermind .. tomorrow then.

Anyway, went to Ubi afterwards. Dinner at 350, was suppose to meet others up. But due to my tiredness, so just headed home & sleep better (:

My throat is dry, i got sunburn, my voice sound so man & i-am-little-bit-sick. ^^ Hoho, but i still gonna dragggggg myself to school. If not i swear my krazys sista will gonna chop me into pieces!

Had a great fun day in zoo with all of them, thinking back, it seem ages i didn't step into zoo already! Haha, although the weather is killing us, but i really had a good time with my krazys sista. (L)

I realised, most of the shop if their promoter is cheena's lady, they will talk like a machine gan & won't let you off. #@$%^&* -.-

&& Lastly, tmrw going school & work again.
Bad news to myself: Tmrw have 3hours POA ):
Good news to myself: Tmrw is last day of school alreadyyyyyy! (:

Holiday, holiday, HOLIDAY! (Y) I'm a happy girl :D

Happy birthday idiot!

2010-06-02T23:51:00.003+08:00

This moment you should know,

I awake from a great afternoon, afterwards have my meal and headed work. Work suppose to be fine actually, but some bastard just being a dumbass to ruin my day. Great job la okay?! I really wish i can just slap you & don't give you any respect at all. But i didn't, that means i still respect you. Please mind your words, even talk is free.

Then some bitch eat wrong medicine & give me attitude for no reason. Please la, if you really love him then go ahead lo. We shall see who will be losing at the very end. Don't try to be funny and act like you know everything, when you don't even know a little tiny things at all! I'm trying to be nice, but mind your step! Don't cross the line! Argh, totally moodless today.

There's nothing last forever, especially love. & of cause i don't trust love too. I already trying pretend everything is ok. But the hardest part is that, emotional always out of control. Manymany times, i just feel like crying. But i hold on to my tears, & continue to joke around, but when i turn around, my tears just round down. I'm speechless.

I'm suppose been in Arena now :/ but i don't know why got this strong feeling wanna me stay at home. Tsk, all of them is having fun in Arena. I'm still facing my bloody computer typing T.T

without a words, i'm hurting because of you.

2010-06-01T00:03:00.006+08:00

Sometime you might be wonder,

Finally Chinese O'lvl is over already. Somehow it's easy, but it seem like the paper is getting harder at the back of paper. I fall asleep when the first paper just started ): Really can't buay tahan the tiredness. The coldness of the hall, really damn comfortable for me to fall asleep. But forget it, at least i'm enough time for everything, just wish i can get an A for this time. Today after exam finally got the time to 'slack'. Okay, kinda strange word to me now. But, i'm happy to see everyone faces in the early morning (: haha!

Ohya! Today i'm being a dumb to reach the roof top to open the gate, & the metal hurt my finger ): It had a blue-black now. Tsk.

Nowadays just wonder why i can't fall asleep in the night ): What i do just to keep watching over & over again the dvd of 'you're beautiful'. Super nice korea show! Love it very muchhhh. Although it is holidays now, but i'm isn't resting, still busying with school & work. Everyday repeating the same things.

Hmmm, everyone have a problem. The different isn't how difficult is your problem. Is the matter how you gonna solve it & prove to others you're not that weak actually.

Everytime you fall in love, is a experience to yourself. When you break-up, at least you learned something & when you get older, you will laugh at yourself how silly you are. There won't be raining in your world forever, the sun always ready to shine brightly for you when you stand up again & move on with life.

Yes, i can't afford to fall in love again by looking back all the hurtful scars. No, the guy isn't laying when he said he love you. But it's only just for that once, not for the rest of your life. & You gonna know that, the meaning of 'the rest of your life' isn't ten years, twenty years. Is more than that until your hair grow white. So, don't promise others when you can't even afford to handle others life. Because it only make the person feel more upset when you leave them. By thinking all the things in the past ... sometime it will make you smile or even cry like an idiot. Yes, anyone of us miss those days. But to me, i don't wish to go back. As i can't afford see the sadness when it comes to the leaving part & i can't afford to pretending like nothing happened.

There is someone i close with almost 3 years, even now we're just like how we used to be at the beinging of time. Not that i don't like the way you treat me. I really felt thankful that you're such a good guy that treating me good enough by making me smile. You're very understandable to know how i feel everytime when i don't even speak up & i felt thankful when you went for oversea still bought things back for me. But believe me, we won't go further than this anymore.

Love life just suck to the maxxxxxx, i fcuking swear! Haha. :D
I'm happy with what i have for everything now.

I'm trying to avoid all those unnecessary emotional, so i will be happier.

2010-05-30T00:31:00.001+08:00

Without words.

2010-05-29T05:51:00.003+08:00

Rewind,

Today work, lunch, end work, eaten & home.

Busy with work nowadays, midnight watched teevee until morning ._. My life totally turn up-side-down now. I'm somehow lag of sleep ): There's still got class & exam during June's holidays! Rofl. Whatever.

Yesterday went out with my bitch :D Really happy to see her. After that met J, & i received a gift from him (: haha. At night, went over to tamp walked pasar malam with Ac. Then went over to work place.

Anyway, there's many things going on. I found YP's life is so happening nowadays. Ohwell, i should admit i'm old already ): LOL. Haha, Cannot like yp slack wherever they like. Because, i believe i left not much time already. There's too many things i have to do, yet i really don't know start from which. But whatever la, just walk one day, see one day now. Tiring for me to go think & think.

since you been gone.

2010-05-21T00:22:00.003+08:00

I still need you be a part of my life,

Sorry for neglected my bloggy for so long. Had been busy working & schooling nowadays, or should i said that I'm sick of waking up early every morning to attend lesson? Lol, well! I better stop this bad habit & go school tomorrow :D

Weekend given to work (: and i can't wait for the pay day. Anyway! I saw this guy, & he's damn cute! :D haha! Lol.

闷热的晚风冷漠的人龙想见你就在这分钟

2010-05-15T00:04:00.003+08:00

Yesterday.

Sister crying day. Specially didn't went for work on this day. We suppose to visit huimin at cck, but sadly. We walked over hours at there still can find her, anyway i fcuking swear it's scary one lo ): But seriously no choice at all. Afterwards, due to the long path, and we walked ever further down. So the sky getting darker also. Then this nice uncle drive lorry & passedby and drive us out to the main road. (: So nice of them right! Akl still wondering if they are 'huai ren'. Lol, seriously i rather get up the lorry than stay at there for such a long time.

Afterwards, went over to this sushi shop to eat, because i seldom meet them up. So went to eat something nice! Nice dinner i suppose? (Ignore those call please) :D HAHA! Then we went home together (: That's all for yesterday.

Dear huimin, i'll get sometime to go visit you again by confirm-ing the place and all. So i can go pray you. Then, we won't get lost again! I geuss, next month ba. RIP ♥

Today.

Wakeup damn early, though that i working at 10am, then realise today is friday -.- So, slacked around in house, then went for work. Today work is fun, i guess (: Haha! Joker are all around, cute! Hmm, still got two days to work full day :O Alright, i know i'll see my money soooon! But i also know it will fly very quikly also! "/

你我曾经深爱过的某人，无非也就是芸芸众生中的一个，只是爱由心生，自以为他/她会是今生最爱，当你感觉你爱她，你用心去爱就觉的他/她最珍贵，当万物归原，生命仍然继续，他/她无非也就是我们生命中的一个过客。

2010-05-10T19:00:00.006+08:00

Everything is a sweetest nightmare,

I miss everything about you, can't believe that i still want you. I know i was bad to said those harsh words to you. But someday you still have to come to this point of time, and i think you should know this very well. Yes, i never told you how i feel at all. The moment i hang your call, do you ever know how painful is my heart to say those things to you, & you don't even know my tears just roll down like that. Maybe this is how fate are, but i'm just hiding behind the wall, and lie to myself, everything gonna be alright, when it is not. Perhaps, i don't even know what are you think either. I really wish i can dig your mind out.

If i say, i love you that is unreasonable. If i say i like you, that seem so-not-right. So, i rather say you're my best friend, and yet you always left me out behind telling me, you gonna be here soon. Your soon took forever. So, i hate it whenever i was waiting for your call/reply. Therefore, i missed your call, i always blame myself. What for? -.-

Yes, your concern really make my days. Your words always melt my heart. But, sometime you don't even know that you're a part of my heart that standing a important position. I really wish i can tell you all this while, but i choose not to cross the line, before the ending might be worst. I choose rather suffer alone, and not gonna affect you at all, you understand?

I remembered every little things of you, just like how a nice boyf you are. Maybe you isn't prefect at all. But at least, everything that represent you it shows that you're really a wonderful boyf i ever seen. Sometime, just because something you said, it really running my mind the whole day. Then, i'll stare into the air and smile to myself.

Thanks for being stupid enough to talk to me over the hours just to make me laugh. Thanks for being a silly to act like a kid to entertain me. Thank for letting me know that you won't be here anymore before i feel even more dying inside.

If there is still someday we met in future, i wish i can see a better you again. Seriously, i still miss you like how i used to. But everything gonna change from now on. I wish i don't even know you at the very beinging of time. Or i should say that fate that bought us here, that's already enough for us? Yes, i won't be your forever. You suit someone better outside.

If one day you feel like crying, call me. I don't promise that I will make you laugh, but I can cry with you. If one day you want to run away, don’t be afraid to call me. I don’t promise to ask you to stop, but I can run with you. If one day you don't want to listen to anyone, call me. I promise to be there for you, and I promise to be very quiet. But if one day you call, and there is no answer, come fast to see me.
Perhaps, I need you.

FYF! Sometime even i smiling, i feel like crying.

2010-05-06T19:57:00.003+08:00

Simple yet complicated,

Today chinese paper, totally dizzy on first paper. But not paper 2 (: After that my dearest Qinren kept complain that i'm noisy! Lol, after school slacked awhile, then went back school talked to Mr Dhillip & Shane. Alright, thanks for adding so much stress on me ):

Anyway, went over to find Ahwei and Beebee just now, they will never fail to laugh die me. Haha! Thanks (: You can mark my words! Don't do silly things again already okay? Must guaiguai already uh. After dinner at their house, Ahwei fetch me home. Homesweethome now, gonna mug hard for my paperxcs tomorrow!

OHMYTIANS! I dreamt something so impossible last night. Scary .___. !!

And im crazy for thinking,
That someday you'll change things when you keep on crossin' the line.

2010-05-04T22:26:00.002+08:00

You'll never be the same,

Today schoool just like usual, but due to my tiredness i kept fall asleep -.-
Gosh, was thinking how about thursday paper? I still gonna work tomorrow. Argh! Since i choose to be like that, i shouldn't complain so much.

Exam period jiu shi exam period, as normal lesson also got test. but thanks Jieying was so kind that let us watch movie, luvs! :D

Long john's for lunch this afternoon, then after that went for window-shopping awhile. Met Danny at the traffic light. Then, after that i bused home. While i'm on my way back, kelly being such a retarded keep sent me all those nonsense sms.

I heard that idiot was damn sick ): But i called him, he told me he's not & still working -.- Ohwell, do whatever you want la. But do remember take good care of yourself ok. I have to occupy my mind with many things, so... i will miss you lesser ):

总是在期待着什么、却往往以失败落幕

2010-05-03T00:29:00.005+08:00

I never told you,
.

Working through the past 10hours, was kinda tiring actually. Thanks Ac for accompany, & Jervyn and Jianquan come and look for me. Luvs!

After work, idiot called and talked many rubbish to me. Haha, I know tmrw you gonna fly me aeroplane again. So you make so much promises also like rubbish to me. But.. somehow, out of sudden, i felt that your heart are so near. Although i couldn't tell you how i feel actually, but i love the way we are now. I don't know how long this good term gonna last, at least you're still here. Luvyou! :D

Tomorrow gonna work again. So, goodnight earthling!

Your words make me feel that i'm melting.

2010-05-01T22:46:00.005+08:00

Life is short,

When i open my eyes, the first msg i saw is telling me that you're gone. Why? Tell me why you wanna be so silly & ended your life so quickly? We knew each other for 8years, those joke we laugh together, those screwup things make us cried .. i remmebered, everything of you. You know we'll always be there even you got your new friends around uh. Why are you so silly )': Girl, no matter what you've already put a fullstop to your life. I really wish you're happy up there, Rest in peace, TanHuiMin. Imy ♥

Okay, i should pack up all those sadness & tomorrow gonna be alright. Went to tm with Keeli, YunZhao & Yiling walked around. & my interview is well going, so i'm gonna start work tomorrow. At least, i will not thinking too much ba.

Should i blame myself or should i blame you? Seriously, i really miss you. But there is nothing i can do.

别轻易对别人说爱，别固执的将别人心门打开，又玩笑着离开。

Smile, because you deserve it.

2010-05-01T22:27:00.003+08:00

Yesterday. ( 30th April 2010)

Went to tm watch movie with Jervyn, Nico, Weilik, Jianquan, GuanMing, Jon & May. We watched Iron Man2. Rate it 3.5/5 Kinda great technology show. Anyway, cabed back to ubi while Jervyn went to Yishun. After that i bused home from there. That's all (:

2010-04-29T21:22:00.006+08:00

Not meant to be,

Today almost late for school, but luckily i make it this morning. Lesson just like normal, & i had a lot of fun in school today :D !! Miss those old days seriously. Oh ya! I feel so proud of myself having so many 'childrens' *laughs*

Some photo tooook this few days, (Random)

Guess who is this :D

After school went out with Eileen & Qinren. While Eileen went back school study, we study outside (: Around 5plus, peishi came! But didn't manage to accompany her much, sorry girl ): Hmmm, company Qinren over to her cousin's car. Then they were so kind that give me a ride for home. Haha! Thanks anws.

Homesweethome for now. & i feel aching everywhere of my body -.- Haisssss, Idiot 2days never contact me already. I though ... but whatever shit you give me, i feel you don't even feel the same as me.

I think this quote suit me ): Seriously, when flashback started i recall everything, really wish you will be here. I pray very hard wanted you to be appear right infornt of me, but every time after i prayed.. i know i only make myself more disappointed only. Sighhhhhhhh )':

How long you gonna take to realise?

2010-04-28T22:16:00.004+08:00

Lost control,

Last night thanks Ac & yap accompany, because someone give a big bomb uh. But he did call up & explain. I still upset, but what can i do? ):

I'm once again late for school today, thanks to someone. Anyways, slacked & get in school after 8am. Went in classroom can't even stay awake. After woke up, most of time was test, test & test -.- really can drive me insane.

After school started English Oral. I was so nervous that at the beinging of reading really CMI ): Then rushed out meet Qinren, walked over to 327 with her. & saw her bby half way, slacked together with Nico & Vincent too. Around 6, i left for homeeee.

Homesweethome, & do some revise worksheet. Gonna sleep soooon (:

I've been putting on the fake smile too often & i felt real tired. I wanted give myself a break and stop being silly. I couldn't find a reason to say why am i falling in for love maybe i'm not, but at least i already tried my best to tell myself, we're not meant to be. So it will be less hurt? I don't know, i only know i can't help but to check my phone every 10mins, even i got a strong feeling that you wont be reply. Should i blame myself or what? -.-

I rather live in imagination,

2010-04-26T22:48:00.006+08:00

Heavily rain,

Didn't get much sleep. So i'm like a walking zombie in school today. How great -.- Anyways, lesson just like normal. Then after school went Central have lunch & walked back to flower shop meet Qinren. After her bby came, i go home straight.

Bused home, & freaking tired. So i got no choice but to sleep when i haven't even dry my hair. Woke up 9plus. Idiot told me he won't be coming in today. So what i'm worried the most always happened. Yes, fly me aeroplane again(!) Really disappointed lo. But.. forget it.

I know i shouldn't fall for someone when i know we're already impossible. But the feeling is different from others. You told me before & don't wanna see me suffer in future. But i did told you, actually i've already finding many reasons to stepping backwards. When flashback start, i can't stop myself to smile like an idiot thinking about what you've done for me. You're really great lover, a great hubby. But not for me, because there's smth stuck between us.

You will never understand how i feel.

2010-04-25T21:46:00.004+08:00

Impossible.

Hello world, i'm back for blogging. Anyway, i gave school too many miss until i don't know how many days already. But i did know that i almost one week never go school already. & Next monday no school \m/ haha! But exam come around soon -.- ohmytians!

I've been to Malaysia the passed few days. Helped uncle work & settle down some issue of my dear family. Specially thanks to an idiot who everynight accompany me eat supper together after i work & fetch me home. Talked many things to this idiot, & i know we have a different direction of future. I know you won't get to see my bloggy. But i really wish you all the best & you're always my best brother (: haha!

Nowadays keep worried about study & money. Most of time also kept myself at home, felt really tired of everything. But i know it gonna be over soon.

I don't get to see you that often from now on. But remember you're a part of my heart. I'll miss you like how you miss me. I won't contact you that often from now on. But if we ever meet again, i know things won't be the same. Everything from you keep running in my mind, i can't stop myself for thinking about you. But soon, it will have a fullstop.

If we ever meet again.

2010-04-16T01:18:00.004+08:00

Another round,

Was being half month through, even my friends remind me how weak i am at the beinging of time. I turn back, & look at the past.. I laugh at myself & find mysefl silly enough for being a fool in your games. Ain't you happy now? I guess you really are.

What am i waiting or even wishing now? I always gotta answer whenever you didn't turn up. I still wanna thanks you for being such a kind soul to tell me all the truth. But, I'm sorry to say that i won't wanna trust you anymore. I'm tired of listening how wonderful you are, when you're not the one.

Do you know how hurting everything whenever you didn't turn up? Do you ever know how sad i am whenever i keep recall whatever you say? Fine! I guess you don't even know a shit. I just don't get it, why do you still have to come to me, when we already make the deal last time -.-

Okay! As a friend, i don't really mind. Think twice whatever you wanna say to me, i don't wanna heard that you're scare that i will go complain! Is that one of the reason you said? I guess so. Since stranger, we become friends, then close friends, then stranger, then friends again! Hey, you're twenty something, can you be awake? I know you like to play, but .. have your limit please. You won't be forever continue like this right?

I know, i can't afford stop thinking all this while, but at least i tried my best not to for most of the time. But gosh! Why you wanna come back? What you really want now?! -.-

You are suck a jerk, why am i still missing you ):

勇气带加上宽容
在加无止境溜光的等候
以为这些付出等于美好结果
你却说凭什么

我相信你爱护我
只是爱没有想像中的多
对天空的辽阔来说云算什么
你不会懂我渺小得多宽容

* 爱你不重我要自己不要放开手
不痛不痛心却独自跳的好寂寞
幸福那个一个美梦是二人同行才有
你渐渐缺席让我悲叹在未来的入口

# 爱你不重尽管我无力再向前走
不痛不痛就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个默默后承受

我想过很多以后幻想过快乐也愉悦心痛
爱就像是偏执的风改雾悬空
只问前进忘了要怎么降落

(Repeat * # * ）

爱你不重
不痛不痛就算辛苦得震耳欲聋
爱你我爱到最后剩回忆这个朋友
爱情从二人同行变成我一个默默后承受

2010-04-12T19:59:00.002+08:00

Just a moment,

Hello world, i think i had left my dear blogger rusty soon. Haha, anyway.. reason is because, didn't touch my computer that often nowadays & i'm tired of everyday repeating the old things again and again. Lol.

Today went to school, was kinda boring sreiously. Anyway, home sweet home after everything done. I'm really tired after i step back home. So wanna have a early night today.

Few more months to go!!! Everything gonna be fineeeeeeee. Haha!

Kinda like this movie actually, damn cute :D hahahaha!

Hope everyone out there goodluck & everything will be fine uh. *best wishes*

2010-04-10T22:23:00.001+08:00

2010-04-07T02:51:00.002+08:00

Give him up

She's crying
On the phone
Everyday, its the same
But she'll never know
He's lying,
He's not alone
At the bar, grinding hard,
With another ho

So wasted,
He stumbles in
Throws the keys on the couch,
Acting innocent,
She won't ask,
Where he's been,
Just wants a kiss from his lips,
Cause she misses him

All this time, it kills me

This is the game he plays
Always gonna cheat
Night after night,
Another girl, another drink
She doesn't see that she should be with me
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him,
G-g-g-give him up

He wakes up
To go to work
Takes his keys, his cds
And a Gucci shirt
He's practised
And well rehearsed
Every line by design
In the mirror first,
She's dressed up
It's Friday night
Sitting home, all alone
Hoping he's alright,
He calls her,
Says he's working late
She's never thought that he's got,
Another dirty date

All this time,
All this time,
It kills me

This is the game he plays,
Always gonna cheat
Night after night,
Another girl, another drink
She doesn't see that she should be with me
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
She's gotta give him,
G-g-g-give him up

They say come what may,
But I can't seem to get you off my mind,
They say come what may,
But I can't let you fall for every line
They say come what may,
But I can't watch while you forgive him,
Everytime,
Everytime

This is the game he plays,
Always gonna cheat
Night after night,
Another girl, another drink
She doesn't see that she should be with me,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up,
This is the game he plays
Always gonna cheat
Night after night,
Another girl, another drink
She doesn't see that she should be with me,
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up
She's gotta give him, g-g-give him up
She's gotta give him,
G-g-g-give him up.

I give up already.

2010-04-05T23:40:00.003+08:00

Moving on,

I will be strong all this while. Haha, alright. Most teachers gave school a miss today. Which means, we do have more than half day free period. Lol, what a enjoyable Monday. But whatever, afternoon just like as usual, so after that headed home by bus. (:

No more detention class already. Everything seem boring, wanna have some energy to chiong for study already. To achieve what i want for future, gonna work extra hard :D !!

After all the things, i will be a happier girl, i swear :D

Lastly, Fiona buddy!
Before i go sleep, i still have to do something that i promise you. ( to
write something for you )
Please, don't be upset already. I know last time many things going on, but
hope things just let it be the past & i know you confirm got cry at home de
la. Don't cry already la. Silly! :D You still got your best friends around you.
You will never be alone uh. Just cheerup & think of the positive side. Rmb,
if he truly loves you, he will be back & you no need to snatch even. Anyway,
focus more on your study better uh. Jiayous :D !!

2010-04-02T00:59:00.003+08:00

Slowly, everything gonna turn up-side-down.

Hello earth, I'm thinking that I'm lack of idea of posting nowadays. Because due to some issues. Seriously, most of them is in the dangerous period now. Upset, tears & moodless. Those complicated feeling is totally indescribable.

Maybe i'll be leaving, for the rest of my life for a refresh. Now, i'm living somewhere that i don't even have happiness, stressing over don't know what & tears can even wash my face everyday. I'm sick & tired of this kind of life. Really.. ):

Don't ask me why, because i couldn't find any reason to say it to you.

Anyway, i gave a miss to school again. (: I spend most of time at home. Yayness, tomorrow going out. Will update when i'm back. Haha.

Thanks for the fall, i've learnt to be strong now.

2010-03-30T21:25:00.003+08:00

Almost faint,

Thanks to whatever nonsense that i had dreamt & thanks to a bastard that dua me until very happy. Seriously i was damn happy at the beinging of time, everyone accpeted you & you ended everything like this. Wth? Then everything throw to me. Thanks uh! I'm stressing enough for whatever that i happened nowadays, & you added even more -.-!!! I never realised that you're that kind of person. Don't think money can win anything. You lost your pride actually. You seriously make my day worse! Fuck you seriously! -.-

Okay, damn the person that ruin my day. Anyway, gave a school a miss today, overslept. Afternoon went over to Ubi find Qinren & Amber. Our topic just like as usual, so.. nothing special. Then accompany one and other went over to bus stop & bused home.

Actually i quite worry for you. But all i do is hide inside my heart & can't even show it. You got your another one to care about you & i don't think you need me either. Hope you're fine seriously.

I don't see those future that i wanted the most.

2010-03-24T19:16:00.003+08:00

Something that you don't know,

I did went to school today, but i'm late (: haha. I didn't run for late coming, but actually i ran to hide. Today most of the lesson was double period, skipped physic & do my maths in class with Kellly and Ruoheng while the rest in the lab. Afterwards, due to the long day, i can't help but to fall asleep at last two period. Haha!

Followed-by LRC, then went out find Qinren & Eileen. They told me something that i don't know i should laugh or find myself unlucky. Tsktsk. Anyway, slacked together until 6plus & bused home. (: So, i'm home sweet home now!

I'm damn tired now, gonna have a early sleep tonight (:

I like this picture :D Damn cute! haha. Anyway, this is for someone out there. Suddenly damn moody, and told me that everything is not the way he wanted. Silly you, everything happened for a reason. Therefore, you can't blame that when things happened is not the way you wanted. This world isn't prefect, and even unfair to you sometime. So, look your life differently, there's more for you to be notice than stuck at those unhappiness. Lastly, damnyou! Don't get fed-up so easily anymore uh. I want peaceeeeeee :D hahaha!!

This is for my silly girl. You once loved him, you once wei ta fu chu many. Afterall, what you gain back is lie. Seriously, no worth it anymore. Sist, i just wanna tell you that, just follow your heart now okay? I mean, ya.. zoo is developing now just like a transformer. So, step back before it hits you real hard till that you're hurt & heart break. Then, don't go think too much anymore aye. You can find a better solution afterall. :D Smilez okay? Luvyou!

If only i could, i will.

2010-03-23T21:47:00.002+08:00

Hello earthling!

Gave school a miss today, was having a bad headache when i wake up. Sigh, was thinking why am i so silly. Anyway, forget it. It's all over already.

Mummy started work already, everything look so different now, when i step back to home. I no longer see her in the living room, only daddy will. I told daddy that i wanted to find a job asap. Seriously, my spending is scary. & I wanna have a saving already. Can't afford to living like that anymore ):

I'm a human being, not a robort.

2010-03-23T00:04:00.003+08:00

I'm tired of crying, seriously.

2010-03-21T23:36:00.002+08:00

I still want you like how i used to,

If you gonna say that today you doesn't wanna to end like this. But at least let me know what you're thinking. It's impossible that you're telling me everyday the same things. Wait, wait & wait! Till the end of the day, i still forgive you. Tell me wht am i doing all this. I'm tired ):

I'm kinda falling out of love. Sigh.

2010-03-21T02:39:00.007+08:00

It's Just like another day,

Today rotted at home the whole day, evening cooked dinner with daddy :D After that talk cock & watched teevee. MacDonald for supper! Study a little bit, & wasted my time like - i don't know why. Because it's already 4am now.

Anyway, school is starting soon. Plus, 2.4km just around the corner. & Jie's wedding fall on this weekend. Lalalala, should i be happy or what. Rofl.

I WAITED SO LONG, JUST WANNA A TEXT FROM YOU.
-disappointed ):

Tag replied,
Manda : Haha, yuppie. Alright. Takecare uh. Luv!
Jiaminisgood(12) : Hi lovelove, it's been age i talk to you, haha. Alrightalright. Thanks for tagged anws. Do takecare. Luvs!
AhjOn : Omg, please lo. Enjoying life uh? I guess better is uh. Because hor, i kinda stress now. & I dont wanna go school la ): Okay, i know i must. & You're the one enoying lo. Lol.

2010-03-18T00:36:00.003+08:00

Everything seem so real,

Morning left homesweethome, then met my two lovely didi downstair. After that bused over to Ubi meet my dear Jervyn. Headed to have breakfast with lucky and jianquan.

After that bused back to Jervyn's house slacked while she sleep like a pig. This pig can sleep ten years o.o LOL.. Anyway, bused back to Ubi again. Met Eileen and co, then cab down to tamp with two idiot.

Went over to repair lucky's phone. Jianquan being such a beetch that keep desiaosiao. Omg, Jeryvn kena stun by a fake dog. HAHAHAHA. Was suppose to catch a movie, but there is no timing that suit us. So, walked around tamp instead.

While this two idiot went over to visit junhao, my dear Jervyn i headed to M'sia :] went over to buy over fav. andand not forgetting thr ' Joker and Batman' haha. Bused over to CS, went dang ren jie have our dinner. Night-dream-talks-out-loud, laugh until i don't know she wanna drop her taopok how many timexsxsx. HAHA. Okay, h2h will never the less. And something unhappy thingy happened. So went back Sg instead.

Now, realise everyone bu shi wasn't in the mood jiu shi sleeping. Argh, forget it. I'm tired anyway. And, i have a sweet day with my dear Jervyn :]

[photos will upload sooooooooon]

But it's already numb anyway.

2010-03-15T23:23:00.004+08:00

我用叹息堆一堵音墙,

Headed to bugis walked around, actually Jervyn was suppose to get a phone. But too bad, there's no stock. Plus, this is not the first time we went there already. haha.

Anyway, saw Qianyi after that. Slacked together, went over to BigBird to have a drink. Ohwell, i'm being such a stress human now ): argh!

Then afterall, back to ubi. Something weird happened... bused home after that. & that's all for today. (:

2010-03-14T16:29:00.003+08:00

一起在海邊吹風
忽然有流星劃過
滾燙的手　降落肩頭
能強烈感覺　胸口的震動

偶爾溫柔的熱絡
含有暗示的幽默
你想什麼　我不太懂
只曉得期待越多越難過

＃你帶著　可以折疊的愛情
　我在等　不會變形的真心
　被抱在你懷裡　卻要提防你
　愛要多聰明才能　逃得過哭泣＃

走走停停的時鐘
深深淺淺的互動
你沒有說　一句愛我
卻把我擺在愛的氛圍中

Repeat＃

＊你那種　可以折疊的愛情
　帶給我夾著開心的傷心
　有時侯掙扎著　陷落在泥濘
　有時又忘了一切的　飛行＊

這是幸福的等候　或心酸的前奏
要放下太多的疑惑　才能專心去快樂

Repeat＊

面對你　可以折疊的愛情
該要有　什麼樣子的表情
為什麼不能問　不能更透明
想要保護自尊的愛　藏著　孤寂

IF I SAY I MISS YOU, WILL YOU BELIEVE ME? ):

2010-03-10T23:57:00.002+08:00

Misses,

愛是不可数的嗎

為何我還相信它不是獨行俠

我在等一個人在等我的永恒

告訴我愛不單行別害怕

2010-03-08T21:28:00.003+08:00

Make me smile for the end of the day,

Today school was totally fine. POA common test shift to friday. Recess time fallen asleep, but nobody call me. So when i awake just nice the bell rang & Jeryvn called. Slacked throughout the whole day, Mrs Poh relief the last two periods. I guess my ss & hist really cmi already ): Sigh.

Anws, detention class after that. Around half an hour, went out to find Amber at bbt. Walked over to bbc with cong & co. Then something happened -.- don't wish to mention about it. Rofl, then went over to coffee shop awhile. When the rest walked back & i headed home. Finally home sweet home.

Nothing better to do at home. Just had dinner with family at outside. Then i'm here to blog.
Idiot, i miss you la! )':

第一次觉得放不下, 第一次心情像海洋, 第一次无力抵挡, 第一次会那么的渴望...

2010-03-06T21:12:00.004+08:00

If i could close my eyes for once,

Yesterday woke up around 5plus, & saw my phone kana bomb with 2oplus missed call & msges. Anyways, perpared all rushed down to bugis meet my dear Jervyn (: went to eat 'wo ai tai mei' Haha, not bad actually, rate it 4/5 :D !! Hmmm, after that bused down to ubi.

Lucky & Nico keep joke then make us laugh like a mad. Around 2plus, all went over to chiong/drinking seesion. Left Jervyn, Lucky, Zk, Ahtuo & myself at 327. Zk went home early, then we walked over to 333. Some of them came back, chit-chat & etc until 6plus, bused home after that.

Today i'm rotting at home, just wokeup not long ago :D haha! Miss my bed soooo much. Lol.

Flashback, i'm stuck seriously.
Hahk kwarm ruk gert nai kwarm fun, row joom pit doie mai roo juk gun.

2010-03-04T19:30:00.003+08:00

Ignorance is bliss,

hmmm, i had a very fulfilling day with jervyn ystd :)
i bet it was the day i traveled the most on bus. HAHAH.

bus to her house to prepare, and trained down to cityhall.
left around 10pm plus as eileen and all was waiting for us already.
slack awhile at bball court with ubi's people, had so much jokes! :D
took the last bus to jervyn's house. had supper @ the prata house,
and yup, me eileen and her talk alot out things :)

FRIENDSHIP SUCKS EVER SINCE I KNOW YOU. lol.

walk over to korkor's house to see him play dota -.- talk abit with
royce korkor through skype :) ahgong called and he came to fetch
us down to oasis to drink. had so much fun :D but sad thing is we
still have to go school afterwards ):

rushed through everything when we reach serangoon as jervyn was
running late for her school. Thanks ahgong they all for fetching us
to school! :) and i am feeling very sleepy and tired now, need to go
fetch eileen from her camp now. byebyes :D

When love never fails to hurt you.

2010-03-01T21:56:00.010+08:00

It seem like just yesterday,
..

Today school was just like normal, but i'm still feeling damn sick & tired. Can't stand myself keep fallen asleep even left that few mins to end the class. Maybe due to some reasons, i seriously can't sleep well. But whatever it is, it will be over soon..

After school slacked until evening & bought back dinner for daddy. Omg, i saw someone! He finally talked to me! Finally, finally, finally :D hahaha, it's so awesome okay!

Omg, my dear Jeryvn are the one who make me laugh like a mad now. Lol!

Sometimes in order to not fall apart, you have to let go of what keeps you together. There comes a point in your life when you realise who matters, who never did, who won't anymore & who always will. So don't worry about people from your past, there's a reason why they didn't make it to your future.

2010-02-28T23:30:00.003+08:00

Lost in love,

I seriously wish i can bang the wall or something that can erase all things that are so precious to me & keep in my mind for being such a long time. What a brave i am that wanna know such thing which really can hurt myself to the deepest sea. What a joke?!

My feeling & love never even change a little. I only know that after we dirft apart. You started to like her, you started to treat me cooler & everything started to gain deeper hurt. So, you are doing a great job of driving me insane!

Here goes the promise to myself, yet you make me look like a failure. Maybe i should hate myself for loving you so much. But i don't doubt my love for you, i believe my love for you is more than anyone in this world expected or mare than anyone in this world could thing. I willing to do anything if you willing to come back. But my sixth sense never cheat me before. Maybe she's wonderful than me.

We're not meant to be, maybe she is.

2010-02-27T00:13:00.002+08:00

No matter how things goes,

I get a shocked of my life today, for the fcuking first time i can't even do anything when something happened to my friend & i can't even do anything when it's just right infornt of me. You understand the complicated feeling? I guess you don't. I bet everyone down there have the same feeling as me, but the most mad one wasn't me afterall. Even until now, my mind still can't get the image off. Seriously, i will fight back what's right for my friend.

Eveything just happened so sudden, in a mad rush. I no time to react to either, what will happened tomorrow?

I breaking down soon.

2010-02-23T22:38:00.005+08:00

Eveything that running in your mind,

I don't like what is happening recently. Especially about stuff between parents and teachers & some cellphone thingy. Rofl! Anyway, common test test test can really drive me crazy. But whatever it is, i still like the way i'm studying when everyone is asleep (:

Alright, today i saw manymany faces, included botak. After they left, met Annchen talked something. After that went home by bus. & I'm tired...

How do you wanna me react with this? ._.

2010-02-22T22:42:00.002+08:00

Back to the past,

Girl, i want you to know. Even thought this few day you might not be here. Remember i'm just 8digits away okay. You must be strong, don't ever do silly things. I will wait fro your call/msg in this few days. Get your emotional back asap. I need you )':

Flashback, flashback, flashback...

You told me we're happy just like last time.

2010-02-22T00:04:00.004+08:00

Messy again,

Wokeup around 3 this afternoon, sick & tired still. When the moment i open my eyes, the first things i do, you will never know. The feeling of disappointment, how great?! Whatever! It's your choice. I can't force you either.

Stayed at home all along alone until evening, uncle's family & my family all went out for dinner together. & That's all for today. Bored!!!

I'm tired of being stuck at this.

2010-02-20T18:25:00.004+08:00

Those feeling that i can't express,

Friday,

Morning went to school as usual, gave Candy a surprise that i went up her house & passed her some chocolate (; After that went to school & finally get to see everyone of them.

Lesson just like as usual. Left school early because my chinese teachear didn't come to school. & bought some stuff over to Zhiwei's house to bai nian. After awhile, Jervyn cab down to Ubi meet me ^^ haha. Followed by Annchen. Then Zhikang came down, slack & Played poker cards there. Around evening, Eileen, Ts, Gerogina, Yuning back. Sit down there slack & jokes much. Then something happened ): But it's already over, & it's fine now.

Went home with Jervyn & Annchen. Then after perparing and all, we went over to Annchen's place to wait for him to bath. We sat at his block downstair, heart-to-heart talks with her & i have make up my mind that, i will never leave her alone anymore. Really can't bear with it when those feeling comes. Sigh.

Alright, skip those part. Then bus over to Grandlink for ktv. Overstop, so we gotta walked over. Then Annchen tell me something that totally make up breakdown that i can't even take it then i cried ): Forget it, we sing 2hours there & around 3plus, we ate our 'dinner' at Gelyang. While we're eating, Annchen study there, end up the last page said no need study infornt. HAHA! He wasted all his energy for nothing xD

Then we cab over to Jervyn's house. I don't know just one morning in the house can have how many ww3 ._. Was talked to Annchen until i fall asleep in the living room. Then wokeup around 10.25am walked into the room to sleep. & Jervyn wake me up again at 10.55am -.- After awhile, i fall back sleep until 2plus. & I tell you uh, i sleep my dream also don't want to let me have peace! Rofl.

Wokeup saw they was drawing while really make me laugh out loud! HAHA. & Thanks to my dear Jervyn was so nice to cook for me & the ice-milo she make for me. (: Then slack awhile, around evening, i left with Annchen to go home. Now, i'm finally homesweethome!

Sometime i really wonder why jealousy kills so much. Just like can chop you into pieces -.- But whatever it is, i'm already half dead. Then dao-ster will never fail to drive you crazy. Omg, what's wrong with this world man. Tired tired~! Today can really drive me crazy. Peharps, i really think too much. So many things crush into my head ( shake head ) Mytians! ):

Overdue fotoxsxs.

I don't know i should laugh or cry.

没有你的日子我真的好孤单所有的心碎全与我相伴
没有你的城市我真的好茫然所有的快乐都与我无关

2010-02-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

Shout,

I feel free and relax here, but those things that running in my mind, you won't be able to know. Currently at Jiejie's house. She's busying wit her hubby about wedding thingy. While the rest is chit chatting. I'm at jiejie's room using computer & listening song.

Yesterday heard that they all went to Sweet-box (ktv) & I already far away to Labis ): So Didn't manage to go sing with couins all. Went over to Labis visit Gu ma & co. After that came home have steamboat. Then followed by, rounding :D Soon, while my cousins is crazy-ing their dota. I playing my camera & phone with the rest till 3plus.

All the shop here is close, other than those entertainment center ): I wanna shopping, i wanna buy new phone card. & I wanna my little cousin faster come back.

& I wanna time pass faster, so i can go back to see all of them.

I miss you, very badly.

2010-02-14T21:52:00.003+08:00

Happy new year,

Hello world, i'm currently at my Grandmother's house :D Thanks to my cousins i got internet here! haha. Alright, my camera is flood with fotoxsxs! Lol.

I'm happy with everything here ^^ Thanks cousins! hehes.
( I do miss everyone out there ): )

2010-02-10T23:20:00.005+08:00

You though you won, but you don't.

Hello world, have been stone at home the whole day. Don't know for what reason, my voice became damn jialat now. Alright, on phone have fun with Korkor & black chicken. HAHA!

She become a jokes of today & i think sooner or later she might take a knife & chase me :O omg! HAHAHA. Korkor have many things in head & i don't understand why. Therefore, he told me, he got into a cat-fight? Sound so good right?

& OMG, YOU KNOW WHAT! BLACK CHICKEN SAID THAT SHE HAVE A BABY!
I KNOW YOU MIGHT THINK IS YOURS, BUT NO! STOP DREAMING! xD

XiiaozSiianz : haha, ya. Respect! (: Hmm, thanks for support bro. Omg, pyschopath. (lmao)

AhjOn : HAHA, you very funny ley. I never 'listen'. I'm seeing my tag! Lol, & stop being innocent. Cos you don't la.. Don't ask my black chicken to help okay! hahahahahah.

Jeryvn : Cekarkkkkkk~! haha, but i like too! Haha.

Kazua : Omg, Taoeh, i swear you're really funny. Haha! Anyway, hellooooo!! Meetup soon! hehe, & cheerup. Don't think so much ok. You need a pair of listening ears. I'm here! (:

I never stop loving you, i'm just stop showing it.

2010-02-07T01:41:00.003+08:00

Are you tired?

Morning Jeryvn called & i was late. So, i jumped out of my bed, after preparing then rushed down to find her. She had done her with her carpet. & ya, look so nicer now uh. haha!

Alright, travel down to Bugis for shopping. Bought some shorts today. Walked here & there. Earlier on was her friends came then left not more than half an hour. After that Qinren & co. came in the later afternoon. Walked & continue shop until 7 like that, while they cab back ubi & we trained then bus over to Korkor's house.

Due to some presonal reason, we are there to console & entertain him :D ( Hope you think positive & not negative okay! ) Jeryvn was kana torture till jialat. Haha, her watch got two noodles! (inside jokes) Soon, kazua came after that. Then i headed home already. Feeling damn tired & sleepy now. Walked the whole day. But thanks guys, i have a wonderful day :D !!

Korkor, don't ever felt that you're left out by us. Always remember you're not alone. Any problem, any hardship.. We will there to give you our best to help you. Be strong & happy always. Nothing will pull you down so easily one right? & right, you're my korkor, i damn heart pain to see you in this bad term. Smilez okay! Think of the watch noodles, i'm sure these can make you laugh even when you're asleeep! HAHA.

Tag replied,

AhjOn : Alright, i will jiayous & remember the past :D Okayz, just joking! haha. Hmm, no need thanks for today alright! Tmr will be a wonderful day, because you're going shopping! Just enjoy yourself there. & ya, i already told you, i'm blogging le mahhhhhhh! (: Smilez okay!

Kazua : Haiyo, don't step already la. Later i don't friend you, then you know! Haha!

Cheryl : Jie! haha. Okay x3 i don't friend you hor! :D HAHA!

XiiaozSiianz... : Yups, i know you all will give the best support one. Haha, thanks alot. Seeyou soon too! (:

Because you've been running through my mind

2010-02-04T21:32:00.002+08:00

Breathe slow.

I hardly see the sunshining brightly out of my window. At least, it's a blue sky now. Whatever that went through, i don't wanna mention it anymore. Smilez!

MrLee called my mum because i'm being a late comer for school. Ohwell, there goes my house started a ww3. My house is totally in the mess & hopefully, i got peace by now.

Forgetting about all school stuff, went over to walk around at Parkway with Qinren, Candy & honey. Back to ubi to meet Boss! haha. Followed, Dexter came to take back his watch. Soon, mummy called. Haiz.

I smilez like an idiot, because of you.

2010-02-02T20:10:00.005+08:00

You will never understand,

I'm trying very hard to talked to you, do you know i have to be very brave? My heart broke into pieces by your words - just like a knife.

My mind filled with wonder, my heart with fright. I'm totally confused, i can't think of anything, expect you. I can't think straight, my heart controls my mind.

Bottled up inside are the words i never said, the feeling that i hide, the lines that you'll never read. You can see it in my eyes, read it on my face. Those past i can't replace, with memories that linger, won't seem to go away. The hurt i'm feeling now, won't disappear overnight. But i know somehow everything will turn out alright. It wasn't meant to be, all i get is jealousy & your nonsense. I swear, everytime it's totally killing me.

But the love never seem to stop, i still get affected easily.
imy badly.

2010-01-31T21:18:00.003+08:00

In the dark,

The msg you sent to me, i keep repeating read & read. But i still don't get a clue. If there's something that bothering you, you can just tell me aye. I'm here, not stepping a single step back. Are you alright? I'm worry )':

Ignore my life, will you?

2010-01-31T03:24:00.002+08:00

Those dream you said,

Yesterday night, played poker card & called Macs delivery & have some h2h talk with Jeryvn, korkor & taoeh also. Some of them fall asleep quite early, so nothing much to do also. (:

Reached home this morning at 8am. Wokeup around 5pm today, went to Eastcoast with parents for dinner. Around 1am cai reach home, after bath & all. I'm finally here to post. I've changed the blogskin & songs. haha! Lol, i'm bored.

Words i want to say, but you won't want to know.

2010-01-29T19:29:00.002+08:00

Spinyourhead, rightround.

Hello world, like finally.. here comes the Friday. Currently blogging at Merryll's house now.

School just like usual today. Thanks Shane for the birthday present & i really like it very much (: hmmm, POA test this morning, i don't think i will get a good result. Because i can't even balance all the amount ): Sigh, pray hard i'll at least get a pass. Hmmm, English lesson paid 20cent due to incomplete work. Chinese was fine, after work done.. finally end school. hah!

Rushed out to meet Merryll & Nelson. Guess what! Korkor wanted to surprise me, & told me he was sleeping at home. Awww, then appear there. & not forgetting, thanks Merryll for the milk chocolate ^^ ! haha. Then bused to my house, they were waiting at my house downstair while i'm preparing & all.

After that we bus over to AMKhub to meet Jeryvn, & The guys were got into a small comflict with a Malay Aunty. So funny la. haha, but anyway, Nelson is mad because of the woman, awww.
While all of them went over to Merryll's house, Jeryvn & myself headed to hospital. ( You got see people shop & wanna buy clothes in the hospiatl before? haha) After that train & bus come to Merryll's house. Now Jeryvn was in lala-land & they guys were outside slacking. Ohwell, Drinking again tonight? haha, i doubt so. That's all for now. Will blog the rest tmr when i'm home (:

最伤心的话却都已说过了会突然就不知该说什么而每一个微笑也不能再一样了

2010-01-28T22:50:00.006+08:00

Happy birthday myself!

Went to school today, nothing special also. End school, rushed back to home with Heng & kelly. Then Keeli & Yiling came over my house. After i bath & all, met tingyi downstair. Walked over to lam bee, they bought a cake for me. Then headed to Macpherson lane to eat 'mian xian' haha.

Go to tingyi's house after that, played poker & used com. Light the candles up after that, cut cake & blablabla. Headed to downstair talked to tingyi. & took some fotos ( i'll upload to facebook probably tmr or sat :D ) Hmm, met Jiemin after that. Walked to cc together, played basketball. & homesweethome. That's all for today celebration of my birthday (:

Thanks for those people that wish me through msg, facebook or tag. Really tyvm ^^! Now finally officially 18 already. Omg, one year older already. Okay, that's so many things to rush for, Jiayous! Still got long way to go (: Ohya! Tmr is friday! Haha, like finally.. the end of weekday! Yay~! ^^ Haha, ton or not? hmmmm, :D !

曾为他相信明天就是未来, 情节有多坏都不肯醒来.

2010-01-27T22:09:00.002+08:00

Every mins means something,

I never went for school for two days already. Nowadays, i just don't understand why.. Sorry daddy & mummy didn't talk much to you both. & Jeryvn, smile okay. Don't think too much already. & Sorry korkor, i know my words is harsh this afternoon, i know even i hide my tears & shout like a mad to you.. you'll always try to be here with me. Sometime you might be mad at me cause of some reason, but i'll understand. (':

People just come & go in life. I thought that it will only apply to relationship, but no. This friendship isn't a few months, but already few years. Throughout those years, we went through up & down. Afterall, you all will be my best memorize. It just like a love path, but always have to come to the end.

Many things happened recently, i guess it won't ruin my birthday anyway (: Few more hours to go, happy birthday to myself! haha. I dont think i will receive any present tmr, haha! Alright, whatever! Friday is coming again! Yay-ness, party time (:

我爱他跌跌撞撞到绝望, 我的心深深伤过却不会忘.
我和他不再属于这个地方, 最初的天堂最重的荒唐.

2010-01-26T01:42:00.002+08:00

Wondering,

Flashback started to replay & replay in my mind non-stop. But, think it over again. I'm just like a transparent to you & nothing else. What for i'm stuck at here & don't wanna move a single step? Am i dumb or what? But whatever it is, me, myself can't even find a best word to describe how 'wonderful' you are & can make me so different.

I've moved away. Maybe here is not somewhere wonderful than yours. But at least it's peaceful than how i'm suffering through out this broken-heart period. You're unlike any others, that's the reason i loved you again & again. Tell me, this is the last time.

2010-01-23T20:46:00.005+08:00

(Row 1 : Ahjon, Myself, Jeryvn, Kazua.)

(Row 2 : Randy, Guanhua, X.jon, Merryll, Nelson, Royce, Muthu & Megan)

Light up,

First, i wanna thanks those people who came to celebrate my birthday with me. Ahjon, Jeryvn, Royce, Megan, Kazau, Kelly, Marilyn, Guanhua, x.Jon, Georgina, Yuning, Ahbee, Dexter, Annchen, Ah le, Cass, Nelson, Muthu, Merryll & some unknown. Thanks for the cake & all. I'm very happy \m/ ( Dexter, thanks for coming back from M'sia to attend my celebration ^^ )!!!

On friday, when the school bell rang.. my phone started to ring & ring. While bro came & fetch me, bused home .. Bath then prepare all the things headed to amkhub meet Merryll & Jeryvn. Have our lunch at nebo, while kazua & kor waited like an idiot at nel's house downstair. Then cabed down to meet them & those people started coming nel's house. Ton at Nelson's house, ate & majong for the whole night. Then midnight, kor took out cake & all of them sing b'day song to me ^^ !! hehes. I guess my tiredness can really drive me crazy. I slept like 5plus in the morning? After i had ate Macdonald breakfast. Ohwell, then woke up at 2plus & bath. This Jeryvn keep compalining wanna go for 'breakfast' ._.

After lunch, h2h talk with Jeryvn. Then after that played majong all the way till evening & bused home. Feeling tired still .. Okay, earlier celebration is over, after all those fun & laughters. I wanna thanks Ahjon korkor really take great care of me whereven i am. Thanks for those present you all gave, i like it very much ^^ & especially the one Jeryvn gave. Lol.

Few more weeks, i think i'll be busy like-dont-know-what already. Chinese new year around the corner, working going start soon, N lvl this year. Ohwell, that's all for living anws.

What i left is here, i don't wish to look back.

2010-01-21T21:59:00.005+08:00

Counting in process,

I went to school today & slept most of the time. Hanging around & fool around some of the time. But, at least i study a little for the time. Haha, then went over to Taman Merah to look for Merryll & Nelson. Bused down to Amkhub, then both of them bully me in the bus -.- Anws, walked around there & both of them bought my birthday present & passed it to me (: Thanks! hahaha.

Travel down to Nelson's house for prepared & bused over to Kor's house. Then john & Royce was there. Talked to korkor about tmr thingy & staff. Ate dinner in his house & watch 'Hi, my sweetheart!' I keep cried over & over again for the same part. Then due to my tiredness, fall asleep for 10mins. Kor pull me up & said that he's dad fetch me home.

So all of them tag along & sat behind the lorry (: Thanks kor! haha, & i'm homesweethome now. Bath & all, i'm here for posting. I wanna sleeeeeeeeep soon! Zzz, i just don't understand why am i so tired this few days. Tsk, i can't be like this tmr. I wanna have fun tmr \m/ hahaha!!

你的明天有多快樂不是我的

2010-01-20T22:14:00.003+08:00

Special moon,

Hello earthling, i slept less than 5hours last night! Due to some sickness. So morning after morning call jiu rush down to meet Qinren, zk & co. After that headed to school, while Qinren fly over to HongKong. Therefore, just like usual, we late again. Guess what, in list i'm only late for school 2times :D haha! But, dc called anws. Shirly wong keep nagging at me & i tears down when she talked alot of those past. Ohwell, that's over(:

Lesson just like usual, i guess nothing much also. Because due to my tiredness, i only can tell you that i really sleep at most of the time :x Then time flies, kor was wokeup by my call. Therefore, i went down to Serangoon find him instead.

Travel down to Taman Merah meet Merryll & Nelson & bused over to kor's house. Then two of them in the bus like their playground. Tsk! Anws, Merryll got to leave early, Jeryvn came after that, followed by Megan & Royce. We were talking about friday celebration & went down walkwalk. Kor bought a watch for my birthday present :D thanks korkor! ( Promise i'll wear it everyday ok ^^ ) Anyways, back to kor's house & guess what!! We started a pillow fight in the room, damn funny can :D haha! but hor, my leg got a blueblack now & korkor keyboard tio water ._. hmmm, eaten dinner in his house & slacked awhile.

Then the time isn't early, so cabed home. Stepped in the house, started to argue with daddy about friday. Alright, we are fine now :D haha! & Moon is so special tonight. Thanks keeli for inform so i get to see (: Alright, i guess that's all for today.

漂流在愛情的海域你我也曾有過傷心

2010-01-18T22:13:00.002+08:00

~~Smoke~~ Love kills,

Wokeup by few calls & flooded msges. After prepared, headed down to ubi & just like as usual, we always in the rush to school. Anyway, lesson was awesome i guess (: At least i got the mood to learn something today. haha!

After that left the school early, then headed to old place meet up with Merryll & nelson, ahjon tag along in the afternoon. Qinren & co. was there after that. Followed by kelly & ka zhua. Talked, joked, eaten & walked - alot. Then our afternoon gone like that (:

Bused home afterthat, & im sweethome now. Currently chatting with Jeryvn. & i guess everything will be alright now (: Dexter is back tmr!! \m/ haha!

I'm sorry but to say bye.

2010-01-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

Isn't meant to be,

Was talked on phone with Dexter the whole night & till 3plus, after that headed to lala-land. Morning, woke up by Candy's call, followed by Qinren. Bused over to Ubi, & slacked awhile. While candy & eng went over to i-don't-know where, Qinren & myself travel down to bugis.

After walked till evening & we cabed back to ubi & slacked while zk came back followed by the girls.. Didn't stay long tonight. Because i was in the rush for home & Qinren got her tuition :D

& Dexter! Go think more jokes okay! 4vs1 ley ^^ haha! Anyway, i can't wait for friday ): haha. My brithday is comingggggggg :D

Nothing seem so special.

2010-01-16T23:16:00.004+08:00

Brandnew day,
..
Woke up around afternoon today, after pack-up my staff headed down to Ubi meet Qinren, candy & her sister. Talked some staff, & yet it's really make me cried. But everything is over already (:
..
After that as promised to Candy that i'll go to Plaza Sing with them, so we cab-ed there & went over to Cube. Meet Eeeng & Ruoheng. Then while they playing Audition, we go walked around the mall. Around eveving, Yuning joined us, & we cab-ed down back to ubi.
..
Zk was there, & slacked awhile, most of them went home. Left Qinren, zk & myself. Zk keep joke & joke. Hahaha! Alright, thanks Qinren for accomapany to bus-stop & i'm home sweet home now :D
..
I'll be brave & continue treat as everything is alright :D !

2010-01-16T00:28:00.003+08:00

Pulling my vein,

Alright, i skipped school today due to some personal issue. Therefore, i slpet until 12plus & perpare all staff travel down to ubi meet Qinren & co.

Afterthat, home & rest. Around evening accomapany mummy went over younger brother's school for the parents-meeting-talks. Okay, i swear it's boring & all. ): I keep complain to mummy i wanna leave. But she don't allowed. Anyway, after the talk, daddy fetch me went over to Serangoon.

Met (I forget the name), he ran over to find me. haha! Then met x.Jon & Megan. We went over to Ahjon's house together. Jeryvn, Nelson & co. was in the house.. Joked much & did talked out some staff to Ahjon. (Thanks brother!) haha! hmmm, then they went over to fishing & i'm sorry guys that i really cannot make it tonight ): Will make it next week hopefully. So, i took bus home.. & i'm homesweethome now (:

&& Ahjon! You don't anyhow post things can or not! Tsk. Anyway, thanks for lending me a pair of listening ears. haha! (:

ps : The brightest smile ever.

2010-01-13T20:09:00.006+08:00

(Took last-year)

Silent,

Left school early today because felt very sick & don't feel like stay long in school. So went out & met Eileen & Qinren awhile then bused home.

I realised staying at home also not a bad thing actually. Talked many things with mum for the whole afternoon. Was suppose to went out with younger brother to fetch sister home from bedok, but her handphone like totally drop into the water D:

So younger brother & me decide to watch our Hitman Reborn & Hi, my sweetheart instead :D hahaha, then followed-by, she came back home said that she went to walk pasar-malam with friends. Didn't heard the phone rang ):

Daddy, i have a full roll of shopping list to show youuuuuu!! haha ^^ Mummy, i will try my best to work hard everything & forget all the unhappiness one okay?
..

Hey, i don't expect your life will turn out this way. Cheerup!

I still wonder what kind of feeling i'm suffering now.

2010-01-11T22:04:00.004+08:00

Lost,

9thjan
Met Jervyn like finally, told her this half year what i go through everything de everything. Then i also heard some of her story, i admit i'm worst than her. Hmmm, after the night performance & etc. & we're happily, finally a free-girl/boy now. So headed to boatquay & went over to The Next Stop find cyndi. Get to drink drank drunk.

Sam, Ahgirl & Jeryvn all drunk ): So i called brothers come over help & three of them drunk till so funny. Three different kind of drunker. HAHA! okay, surprise that i saw chuisan, cheryl & the rest there, while they're sleeping. We played truth or dare, after that took cab back to ubi with chuisan. Eaten & bused home.

10thjan
Sleep throught almost the whole day, then went over to find Qinren & co. Then home.

11stjan
School just like as usual.

school > Bedok > Tamp > Ubi > home.

Feeling very tired & moody don't know over what. Okay, everything gonna be alright.

Nothing else i can say, anymore.

2010-01-08T21:45:00.009+08:00

Hush & listen,

I realise .. My jie's getting older & older D: Because she's getting marry soon. Then i realise it same goes to my mei, tsk. Think back of the past uh, she's such a irratating freak (even now she still will, but not so much alrdy) Because she started to grow up & like .. wow. She is 13 now & i'm 18 this coming 28th already. I think i have neglect my fanily many years?(i mean mentally) zzz. Scray, i wonder why time flies so fast. & i looked back my past. It hell funny some of the time. Yea, that's what i called chillhood (:

Okay, back to today. School is a boring place to go, yet it still fun afterall. Whatever, more people is getting sick. Hope you all really take good care of yourself alright (;

Celebrated Candy's sister brithday, slacked, played rain & home. About today, hmmm, because nothing much comes into my mind & it's still the same old things. Tmr is the Party already ^^! Butbut.. one thing i don't like is that parents need to go at night. Was thinking to go somewhere else after that de lo ): Argh!

So tmr morning will be doing for the school fund thingy, then after that party. Followed by sunday, i'm booked too! Omgz, full pack for this week! What a great school reopen first week. Tired, damn tired. Can't even sleep 6hours per day uhs. -Panda eyes- k, i'm better turn in asap.

Candymummy,
It make my such a heart break when see you break down like a lli baby. I can't to stop your tears either. Because i'm not you, but i willing to do anythings to make you happy, just like playing in the rain just now (: Don't spend your time thinking of something that doesn't exit. Remember, love is just for a moment. You gonna cheerup & walk steady like you ever did! You might fall while you're walking in this path, that's life. Come'on, you'll start to learn afterall. Anyway, my shoulder is always here for you to lay on, here to hug you give you warm & not forgetting, here for you to listen whatever you wanna say. Smile candy, loveyou! (:

Couple,
Same goes to you, my dear couple. It really gave a shocked me while seeing you was in such a bad mood this few days. Maybe there's something bothering you. But don't angry & cry le okay. Everything will be over soon, cheerup!! I really wish to get to see your real smile again. Alright? Loveyou!

I wonder, when you looks into my eyes & watch my heart shatter. Doest it break your heart too, even crack it a little bit?

2010-01-07T22:40:00.005+08:00

Unexpected,

Everything is so unexpected, i just dont understand why. Therefore, everything kept running in my mind.

Okay, late for school again ... Due to the heavy rain today aye. Then after that lesson ust like usual. Really making me wanna sleep, some of them went home early. Candy went home after school also. Left Eileen & me went over to Ngee ann poly.

Quite acceptable. & i finally get to see the course i wanted so much :D After that took a looooong way bck to ubi. Sigh, really gonna fall sleep, but no! My dear eileen already fall sleep, so i can't afford later she sleep & fall. haha! Lol. Then went to ubi met Qinren & Yuning.

Slacked awhile, then after that bused home. Like finally, tmr is friday :D !! Hmmm, i'm happy, i'm happy (Although i'm not really that happy) but! I'm still have the mood to do my things (:

I being my day with a smile, end my day with a smile too (: I'm lack of the things called 'brave', there's so much left-over words i wanted to say. I left it unspoken. How things gonna work the following of days? ):

Ps : Currently on phone with Dexter.P :D haha!

2010-01-06T21:13:00.004+08:00

Black & white,

Woke up later than usual, because damn tired. After that cabed down, ran into school & finally we didn't late today (: haha!

Lesson making me yawn, thanks classmate for entertaining btw! Then saw Gary & chat-chat in the canteen. Thanks for your breakfast aye. Hmmm, nothing much about school today?

Okay, after school bused over to Center with Meimei. In bus both of us fall asleep, so funny! Haha, then i tio trick by Bestfriend! ): After that went over to coffee shop with Boss, Ahgirl, Bestfriend, Ezella & Meimei. We talked & joked much. Suddenly, i'm start to afraid that i'll lost anyone of them. Emotional up, but i'm totally fine. Did the banner for Sat, then trained together (: Yes, we'll meet each other even there is no-more this programme called Swp!

Met Qinren, Couple & co over the void deck just like usual. Bused home after that. Tsk, i feel so moodswing now. I just don't understand myself, maybe i didn't sleep much? Okay, whatever. I gonna admit i'm really tireddddddd ):

Countdown 15days to another 21st!
Countdown 22days to my birthday!
Countdown 39days to Valentine's day & see all my cousin!
Countdown 81days to Jie's wedding!! :D

Love is the extremely difficult realization that something
other than oneself is real.

2010-01-05T21:46:00.002+08:00

Illusion babe,

Wake up early morning 5plus to bath & all. Then headed down meet all my dearest. Hmm, this morning unlike yesterday. Haha! They were so hyper-active yesterday uh. Therefore, we're later againnnnnn. It was like - only second day of school? Then they were saying, meet at 5am?! Okay, that's jokes (:

School just like as usual- Boring. Hmmm, i better stop day-dreaming from now on. Argh! Lol. After school went to Tiong met Sam & headed to Center together. Then went Coffee shop with Johnny. He's damn funny :D Did had a little heart-to-heart talk. Hmm, sometime i really pity Johnny being a worker like that lo. Anyway, i'm gonna end this Programme soon :D !! Johnny called mummy said that i went for dinner, so headed to Subway with Ezella & Sam. Talked & trained down to meet Qinren & co.

After that, bused home. I'm sweethome now. I'm soooooooooo HAPPY today! Lol. Hmm, my birthday is coming!! && i want make myself very busy over everything! Haha.

Out of this sudden, this half year passed so fast & so many things had happened. But i did learnt alot alot. Thanks all those people around me, really (':

遇見你那天起思念總不停
讓我發覺這世界充滿著愛的甜密
我好想把我的愛全部交託給你
一生一世都不分離

情已變回不去沒人來決定
我只好選擇離開因為我不夠任性
你讓我變得好孤寂
你讓我痛得沒力氣傷了自己

還是讓你走走了請你不要再回頭
放開你的手讓愛這種感覺最難受
到底我們的問題是誰的責任
有誰來作平衡
我感到一點點無奈的心疼

還是讓你離走分手兩字很難說出口
放開你的手是我給你最後的溫柔
不要說借口無法挽留

還是讓你走走了請你不要再回頭
放開你的手讓愛這種感覺最難受
到底我們的問題是誰的責任
有誰來作平衡
我感到一點點無奈的心疼
還是讓你離走分手兩字很難說出口
放開你的手是我給你最後的溫柔
不要說借口無法挽留

2010-01-04T22:19:00.003+08:00

Actaully,

Hello world, first day of school & i almost can't sleep the previous night. One reason is due to somehow eh .. & another reason is because i'm so excited wear my uniform again! :x Stupid though, but whatever :D

I saw many many familiar faces in my class, happyhappy :D hmmm, anyway, end school & went to slacked awhile. Nu ren, cutecute & etc came over to ubi! (: Hmmm, then after that went home after that, bused home.

Was in my deep thinking, & someone come and block my way!! ._. Haha! Then i realise is Aw-lala!! (: So happy to see her & we talk like super free one, keep talk & talk downstair. Then, i rushed home to do my homework & she go do her things. Followed, she came to my house & we watched 'Hi my sweetheart' Together & we did a heart-to-heart talking & i tears down. She's sweet (: & she's reading beside me. HAHA!

Alright, i shall blog another day.
When i was in the deep thinking, the person is you. Maybe i shldn't, sorry.. i'm silly.